Month: September 2017

Day 134: Cold Morning

Day 134: Cold Morning


I am a cold morning, calling
in squall and rustle and bright sunrise
and breathless gasp as I dive past the lip, and into the lung,
with clean and watery shock.

 

wake with me – into this very moment
of all that is real
though not really seen.

(so little can ever be seen)

 

The bee that stings, slows in me –
crisp wind from the north –
and I take last season

away.

 

The leaves that were letting go

release

and fly

without painful parting
or a pull at the stem.

 

They were barely holding on, anyway.

 

Can you feel the new season coming on?
Can you feel the shortening of days?

The earth is calling:

“go home. come in.”

 

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Day 133: One Day

Day 133: One Day


I used to work for a priest. He was an inspired man. He was passionate about leading and loving, he was injured and recovered and empathic to those still hurting, and he was horrid at keeping a schedule. When I left the church, he gave me a book, signed in love, that I put on a shelf and never read.

It’s a funny thing about resting on Islands, you dust off and look at things that’ve always been with you but haven’t been seen.

The book is one of poetry. It’s a collection of sacred voices from the East and West, calling out…

There is a woman whose writings are absolutely haunting me.

I guess that’s what good poetry does.

Her name is Rabia. She was an Islamic saint who lived in the 8th century. I like to think about that; she was born exactly 1300 years ago, in a time and religion and culture that are completely foreign to me, yet her words resonate as if they were my own.

It is said that she was separated from her parents at a young age, was stolen, and sold into slavery. A brothel bought her where she worked until she was 50 years old and was given her freedom by a rich patron. “The remaining years of her life were devoted to mediation and prayer, and she would often see visitors seeking guidance about their lives.”¹

There are a handful of poems here that I would consider my “good thing” today, but the one that gets me the most follows…

It’s brevity is magical. How can so few words fill up the entire sky with image, meaning, and knowing?

Take a breath,
clear your mind,
and hear:

 


ONE DAY

One day He did not leave after
kissing
me.


 

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¹ From Love Poems from God by Daniel Ladinsky

Day 132: Missing

Day 132: Missing


The clouds have covered the moon, my love.

The mists have clouded my path.

The sun is blinding the road ahead

and I’m lost in this lovely, green strath.

 

And here I would stay

for eons of days

if I had you

along for the walk

But my songs,

they do echo

‘gainst walls of the trees

and birds in reply only mock.

 

Where did you go? My love? My lover?

When did you wander away?

My muse, she is with you, and I ache to recover

the stars that still shine in the day.

 

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Day 131: Islands

Day 131: Islands


There are islands
in personal journey –

respite rocks in salted waters –

 

when gales calm to breezes
and bring cool, sun-stained air on their backs,

 

when the sand gives way only enough to slow your pace
but does not fall out from under you,

 

when you can hear the beach-bound waves,

shh,

shh,

shh,

here is a new tide I bring,

shh,

 

where a smile comes freely
without payment –
without pain –
and your brow is loose and milky.

 

In this reprieve

I breathe

and love, still.

 

 

The seas will rage again, I know
and in them I shall swim.
’Tis how I’ve been made –
to rudder, to row,
and navigate oceans within.

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Day 130: Pot Pie, Filling the Crust

Day 130: Pot Pie, Filling the Crust

Now we’re going to fill that wonderful crust you have chilling in the fridge.*

This is the first time I’ve ever actually written out a recipe for my pot pie. It’s always such a creative endeavor and rarely the same twice. In fact, a pot pie is intended to be a hodge podge of the meats and root vegetables you need to use up, but that may not be enough as a stand alone meal.

I say this to encourage you to branch out from what I’ve written here. Use turkey leftovers after thanksgiving. If you had a beef roast that no one wants to finish, substitute that for the chicken and use rutabagas rather than potatoes.

You get the idea. You are the pot pie artist.


My Ingredients:

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  • 8 Tablespoons (1 stick) of salted butter
  • 1 medium onion
  • 2 medium or 3 small potatoes
  • 2 large carrots or a handful of babies
  • Rotisserie Chicken (minus the breast I used for my salad the day before…)
  • 1 can or box of condensed cream of mushroom soup**
  • 1 cup frozen peas
  • ½ teaspoon salt
  • ½ teaspoon pepper
  • 1 teaspoon poultry seasoning (not pictured)***
  • salt and pepper to taste
  • one recipe of the pie crust, divided into two, chilled clumps

 

Preheat your oven to 350°.

Melt your butter in a large pot over medium heat while you chop your onion

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and add it to the butter, browning it while you chop the potatoes

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and then the carrots.

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Let this simmer in the butter on medium heat for about 10 minutes while you debone your chicken. Turn down your heat if the butter starts to burn.

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The butter and root vegetables will clear as they cook. They should be cooked, but still firm and not mushy.

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Add the chicken

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and the condensed soup.

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After that’s thoroughly heated through, add the peas and seasoning, folding gently without breaking the peas.

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Do your taste testing here, and correct with salt and pepper, as needed.

Turn off the heat and let your filling cool a bit while you roll out the pie crust.

Grease and flour a deep dish pie plate.

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Take one cold pie crust. When it comes out of the cling wrap it will look like this:

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On a GENEROUSLY FLOURED counter surface, knead it two to three times until it looks like this:

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This should not take a long time, and you don’t want to over work it or the heat from your hands will melt the butter.

Roll it out to a 12”-14” circle, flouring and turning as you go so it doesn’t stick to the counter.

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Place it in your greased plate,

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and fill with your yummy filling.

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Roll out the top crust as you did with the bottom and place on top of the filling:

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Now, pinch a seal by squeezing the top and bottom crusts together, all around your pie.

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The second seal is formed by turning the edges under,

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and pinching again.

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It should look like this when you’re done:

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To create a decorative edge, pinch and twist between your left thumb and index finger,

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and press down against your thumb with your right index finger.

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Cut steam vents so you don’t create a chicken pot bomb in your oven…

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and brush with a whisked egg wash to make your crust shine.

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Bake at 350° for 45 minutes to 1 hour, checking to ensure your crust doesn’t burn, and turning to make sure it browns evenly around. The filling should be gently bubbling through the steam vents.

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This is just….

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oh, man….

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you just gotta try it.

 

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*If you have a frozen crust, thaw it in the fridge the night before.

**If you like a pie that has gravy oozing out, use one and a half to two cans of soup. Watch your sodium and salt as you increase soup, though. It gets salty quickly.

***A note on the poultry seasoning. I would highly recommend buying a quality organic seasoning. The “regular” seasoning is pulverized into a powder and you cannot see the individual herbs, and I don’t think the taste is as good. If you’re making a beef pot pie, try using steak seasoning (watch that it doesn’t get too salty) or just rosemary, salt and pepper.

Day 129: Pot Pie

Day 129: Pot Pie

’Tis the season for hearty fare and comfort food and ovens that emit intoxicating smells of bread and spice. I am kicking it off with my favorite fall dinner: Chicken Pot Pie.

We’re starting with the crust today. This crust is a slight variation on a Cook’s Test Kitchen recipe they used for a blueberry pie. I totally use this for sweet pies as well, and it works great. The only con is that it doesn’t hold a crisp shape like thinner, drier crusts do. It’s not ideal for lattice or detail work as it will puff up more like a pastry and lose design definition. The trade off, though, is moisture and an incredible flake that melts into butter in your mouth.


Ingredients:

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  • 2 ½ cup Pastry flour
  • 1 teaspoon salt
  • 2 Tablespoons sugar
  • 12 Tablespoons COLD unsalted butter
  • ½ cup cold shortening
  • ¼ cup vodka (from the freezer)
  • ¼ cup ice cold water

 (note: I’m making a double batch in the pictures, so my quantities will seem higher)

 

Put the flour, salt, and sugar in a mixing bowl,

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sift them together with a whisk or the paddle attachment until they’re combined.

 

Cut the butter into 1/2” cubes

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and add it to the flour mixture, along with the shortening. When you add the shortening, do so in clumps or cubes, just as you did with the butter.

 

Mix with a paddle attachment on a low/medium speed until the flour and fats cut into each other and get a cottage cheese looking crumb.

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Turn the mixer on low and drizzle the vodka and water over the dough as it combines.

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Stop as soon as it’s combined! You don’t want to over mix this or loosen the butter too much.

 

This dough will seem soft and “chunky” with butter, and that’s good – trust me.

 

Now divide the dough into two crusts. I lay out a piece of cling wrap on a scale for easier dividing, but if you don’t have a scale just eye ball it.

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Plop a glob of dough into the wrap. (If you’re weighing, it should come out to 13.25 oz/ball)

 

Seal it up and refrigerate it for at least 3 hours before using. It can be refrigerated for up to three days, also, so you can make it well in advance of your meal.

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This is an easy recipe to double. I typically freeze one set of crusts and bake the other. They can be frozen up to 2 months.

 


 

…Stay tuned for the filling!
Oh, the filling…

Day 128: Framing Things, Part 2

Day 128: Framing Things, Part 2


Continuing the framing quest from Day 125, I found this beautiful card by artist Rick Allen. His Ken-Speckle Letterpress in Duluth, MN has been inspiring to me for years. Truly an “Axe & Loom” artist, he harkens back to the 19th century with engravings whose images comfort, call, and dare, all at the same time.

I picked this card up on Day 2 of my Road Trip, and am so grateful for the reminder.

It makes me readier for the waters…

 

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Day 127: Unwanted

Day 127: Unwanted


At some time or another in your life,
you will know that you’re unwanted –

– by a friend that moved on.

– by a child that wants to do it on their own.

– by a lover that has outgrown you.

– by a belief that needs more faith than you have in it.

 

and the feeling, at first, is a painful vacancy;
an urgency to cram space
and rearrange a room
that has no furniture in it.

but if you breathe,
and feel yourself
from the inside out
with all the bits and bobbles
you possessed when you were

still

wanted

you may see,
in this precious and unnerving place,
that you have the opportunity

to saturate emptiness

with the version of yourself
that you could not be
while you were busy filling
someone else’s wants of you.

there is no furnishing to better this room.
there is no addition to your ingredient
that would make you taste sweeter
or more complex.

we are all of us wanters and unwanted,
waiting to want and be wanted again,

and though made

whole,

are seldom seen

as such.

Where want has wilted,
I plant seeds of knowing and peace.

Day127_Seeds of Knowing and Peace


Day 126: Summer’s Last Splendors

Day 126: Summer’s Last Splendors


The sumac is turning to burnt sienna
and the golden rod glows in the green.
Summer is bidding for open eyes
that all her last splendors be seen.

 

She calls out in the evening,

“Our time is fading, the heat in me cools,
the pace of our passion is slowing,
and temperance rules.

 

In the breath of fall, I embrace you;
in my old, loving leaves we shall play.
Once more I’ll look upon you;
will you look upon this day?

 

Will you recall the sweat I placed upon your skin?
Will you remember my cool springs that relieved?
Will you enter the swaddle of winter
and forget not what we,

in summer,

believed?

 

Hear the cranes – how they cry in parting.
Hear how the locust sings.
Hear the poplars rustle in season’s end –
the death and beauty it brings.

 

I shined on you as best I could, my love,
though suffered you some storms
I know.

I shared with you the best I had, my love,
in all my altered forms,
you know.

 

The air is changed,
and I along beside.
Autumn calls me home again
wherein the great hall I shall reside,

storing warmth at the hearth
for another season-

another season-

another season-

 

and in new spring rain
with new fire, and new eyes
I hope to see you again.”

 

Day126_Summer's Last Splendors


Day 125: Framing Things, Part 1

Day 125: Framing Things, Part 1

I’ve had special little pieces of art hiding about my house for years, waiting to be framed. Some are not so much “high art,” but they make me happy whenever I see them. I’ve decided I want to see them more often, and visiting my “to-be-framed-and-hung-eventually” drawer is no longer sufficient.

Carpe Diem.
(Seize the wall.)

One said piece (and this is high art), is the underside of a book jacket. The book is As You Wish by Cary Elwes, and is a reflection on the filming and aftermath of the almost 30-year-old movie, The Princess Bride.

I love this movie. I loved it when I saw it in the theatre with my mom, I loved it when I watched it as an almost married woman, and I loved it when I watched it with my kids. I never really knew why, exactly, and I’m sure the why has changed over the years, but now? Now, I love it because it reminds me what it’s like to be lost in a story of epic romance and stupid dumb odds.

Sometimes, it’s too easy to get lost in the Fred Savage way of thinking, and focus on reality: the nuts and bolts of relationship, the facts that don’t measure up in love, the ridiculousness of still hoping when hope is a fool’s hiccup. I got lost under those covers, and it did feel like a bad head cold.

There is still and always something inside a romantic’s heart (I suppose I’m admitting I have one) that knows connection across time and space is possible. There is no amount of age or damage through the days that can take that knowledge away, unless you let it.

I don’t want to let the years wear that cornerstone down.

I’m gonna hang this on my wall to remind me they don’t have to.

Metaphorically speaking, I find it ironic that I never hung this because it didn’t fit any frames I owned or could buy.

No. Epic love is like that.

Custom made and hard to find.

 

 Day125_As You Wish