Month: July 2017

Day 83: Reasons to Be Happy

Day 83: Reasons to Be Happy

for times we laughed at the same time and together,
for food shared in the wee, thin hours (those calories never count),
for pink cheeks from brown rum,
for stories that tell the story we do not live.

 

for wit that impresses and the gratitude to find it
for the bounty that befalls us when we least expect it.

 

for being seen without alteration
and wanted still.

 

for just the right amount of contradiction
to strengthen your conviction
but teach you to listen.

 

for little kids who you can’t fool

(may they grow to adulthood and see so clear)

 

for mesmerizing camp fires that coax conversation to sweeter truths,
for the embers that do not die.

 

I have had these things and more,
but I am mostly

happy

‘cause I held you
happy to have loved you
just that once

and forever.

 

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Day 82: An Open Letter To Insecurity

Day 82: An Open Letter To Insecurity


Dear Insecurity,

What a curious little gremlin you are. It has come to my attention as of late that you’ve been whispering sweet nothings in my ear, and in the ears of many a close friend. Your sweet nothings would be nothing if we would but stop listening. Alas, your nothings DO amount to something.

And quite large somethings, sometimes, too.

You, who convince us that our loves do not love us,
could not love us,
would not love us,

that our wisdom is banal
and our humor benign.
that precision is anal
and our aim, misaligned.
Predictor of failure,
so why even try?
You forecast storms in the clearest of skies.

You bike-crasher, foot-tripper, song-stifler, and courage flatter.
You word-swallower, letter-loser, note-bender, mad-hatter.
You line-dropper
and moxie-mopper.
You wall-builder,
(is that what killed her?)

sword-sheather, impulse-squelcher,
bud-nipper, insult-belcher,

You friend-corrupter, treasure-hider,
You shoulder-huncher, you shame-rider.

You isolator, you confiner,
you medicator, you light-un-shiner.

 

We

don’t

want

you,

anymore.

You do us no good, so here’s the door:

Take your critiques and your shadows of doubt,
take your sick fragments and see yourself out,

insidious creature, there’s no room for you here.
We’re replacing your space with the absence of fear.
‘Cause there’s something that’s in us
that’s good
and that’s whole
and to fill it with doubt
is no longer your role.

We’d wish you the best,
but we know you’ll not find it
for you’ll only seek pain
and in yourself, bind it.

So consider this letter a heartfelt rejection
of all your doomsaying and damning projection.

Dear, dear insecurity,
here is grossly over-due
notification:

YOU’RE FIRED.

Signed,
me and my friends
(with unshackled elation).

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Day 81: Story Number Two, Chapter Three

Day 81: Story Number Two, Chapter Three

The Fight


Now the giant was accostomed to chasing down his prey and stomping the ground so hard that as he got near, their running footsteps would be be stolen from beneath them. The earth would yield to his boot and his victims would stumble upon themselves in complete terror, trying to get away from him.

He was perpetually amused by the tactics those little humans would employ to escape their doom, which of course, never worked. He thought of those who’d hide in a ditch, betting that his vision was poor (which it was not), and how he’d pulverize the ground until he created new and deeper ditches.

The unfortunates would lose their lives in those shallow graves.

He recalled those who would run:
how futile and frantic
a run can be ran;
how a fight can be won
though it never began.

He prided himself on their 300 steps to his 15
before he’d catch them
and lift them up from the ground
and pull their limbs
like leaves from a stem.

but what this giant did not expect

was a girl,

smaller than his routine mark,
coming straight at him
with eyes so clear
and sharp.

His gait flustered and his vision perplexed.
He did not actually know how to capture something that was not moving

away from him.

 

It was a jarring thought:

“what do I do when something comes at me?”

So jarring, in fact, that he stopped, mid-trot.
His arms fell to his sides and he stood,
towering over the girl,
stupefied by her assault,
amused by her mettle,
entranced by the élan of pocket-sized pluck,
and he began to laugh.

he                       laughed

 and

he                         laughed

and

he                           laughed

 

The girl stopped.

With her heart in her throat and her knees in her toes, she looked straight at him;

there they were, in a ridiculous stand off of befuddled curiosity, when he spoke.

“Girl, where are you from?”

She replied,

“I am from a home

and a gravel road

and earthen trails

and a farther place too,

where all the sky

and all the stars

and all the moons

and suns converge.

I am from a place that is all places

and not one is better than the rest.

Where, Giant, are you from?”

He answered,

“I am from a place underneath all of this

and it is dark

and there is no sound

except the clicking of my eyelids

in search of light.

I think I should like to see

your home

and your gravel roads

and your sky and suns and moons and stars converging.”

said she,

“war no more with me

and I will take you there.”

 

Day 81_Story 2, Chapter 3

And the world became a bigger place for both of them.


The End

Day 80: Story Number Two, Chapter Two

Day 80: Story Number Two, Chapter Two

The Giant


The girl stood in her steps as the trees parted,
and from behind the curtain of green,
came a very large
and very angry

giant.

He burst forth from the woodland as though he were brushing horseflies from his hips, instead of displacing deep oaks and uprooting ancient aspen.

He stood, ominous against the edge of the smitten wood,
and spotted the girl,
far out in her quaint clearing,
and began marching toward her.

Now the girl – she had never seen a giant before – was in shock.

It was as alarming as a pit bull coming at you from behind a closed gate,
with fangs baring and four legs braiding
in a splay of attack and threat.

Everything stopped.

In that split second
that contains the whirlwind of thought
of all the outcomes
of all the choices
she could ever make

the girl thought:

“If I run, he’ll surely catch me,

If I hide, he’ll surely crush me,

but if I run toward him –

straight at him –

there’s a chance I could see what’s coming at me.

There’s a chance I could dodge

There’s a chance I could dance

There’s a chance in me somewhere.

I know it.”

So with all her might, she dug the balls of her feet into the matted grass and began her clash and blitz against the giant.

It was a raindrop in defiance of the iceberg.
It was a bee in combat with the eagle.

but she ran, with
head down,
eyes up,
fists clenched,
feet pounding –

she ran

straight

into the giant.

 

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…Final Chapter tomorrow!

A side note about story-telling: I’ve recently been reading a lot of allegory, myth, and folklore. So many of these stories seem nonsensical and foreign, outlandish and (in some cases) even pointless. But as I give them breath, and space to mix in my mind, I find my attraction to “tale” is not found in the answer it gives, for rarely are things tied up in neat bows, but rather in the questions that rise up inside me while I read. More than that, these types of stories encourage a willingness in me to live with sensitivity to mystery, without needing absolutes, and in appreciation of universal truth experienced through the vehicle of the absurd.

Day 79: Story Number Two, Chapter One

Day 79: Story Number Two, Chapter One

The Girl


Once upon a time,

a little girl went for a walk.

She walked far, far out, onto gravel roads and earthen trails, past forests, past lakes, past vast plains and wide fields until new forests began. Eventually, she came to a place that was so far away, she could see ALL the sky, and all the stars, and all moons and suns as they traveled overhead.

She stood there,
under the moons
and the suns
and the stars
and the sky,
and decided she was full.
Full of distance and full of space.
Full of mystery and full of grace.

She held her gaze with the heavens as long as she could
until her breath clouded the air in front of her
and she blinked a long blink of thanksgiving
and thought, “it’s time to go back home.”

 

On her way back home, though, whilst she was walking in wide open country, she fixed her eyes on a distant line of trees that began a dense and shadowed woodland. The trees, that should have been a static silhouette against the sky, stirred only by breeze and birdsong, puzzled her as they began to move in odd and forceful shoves. They were being violently parted, as if a plow was digging it’s way up from beneath them, from root to leaf, and heading toward the clearing.

Those massive ash and elms looked like blades of grass, cleft from the ground up, by a mouse’s track.

She slowed her pace.
She held her breath so it no longer clouded the air in front of her.
She opened her eyes as wide as they could open
because she knew something

big –

something large enough to divide woods and timber –

was about to come out
and into the open…

 

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…Chapter Two tomorrow.

Day 78: When Old Friends Meet

Day 78: When Old Friends Meet


There are some people you go for years without seeing,
but life brings you ‘round to each other, eventually.

doesn’t life have a way of doing that?

 

And when it does –

bring you ‘round –

 

it’s a lovely thing to find that despite all the

job changes

personal challenges

recent victories

new memories

traumatic events

stupid movies

new pets

lost loves

gray hair

broken bones

old habits,

dying hard

 

some things still remain the same –

and friendship
need be
the only commonality
between kind souls.

 

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Day 77: What the Roses Don’t Know

Day 77: What the Roses Don’t Know


The roses know when a storm comes through
and their branches strain under the weight of wind and water.

 

They know when I come with strands of twine and tape

to bind them.

 

They feel the pull of their limbs as they’re bound in strange arrangements

up,

up,

and off the ground.

 

They pant from the sting of food I place at their root,
when fuel burns and seeps

down

though the earth and into them.

 

They know what it is to be cut.

 

When I come with shears
and find all the dead growth;

the hard hips, spent to stones,

the blighted leaf,

the broken bits that burden the bush

and keep it from getting taller.

 

They know the wound of removal and restraint.

But what the roses don’t know,

what they can’t see
– though they may sense –

is what they’re about to become

 

Day77_What The Roses Don't Know


I lost count at 24.
How many buds do you see???
Day 76: When the Imagination is Not Enough

Day 76: When the Imagination is Not Enough


The mind’s eye is a fantastic thing.
It can conjure all sorts of future memories
and bring back childhood’s past.

But sometimes the imagination is not enough.

Sometimes there is a prickling in your palm as it wants for a hand.
Sometimes there is a space in the chair beside you

and you stare at it,

waiting for a ghost to take shape,
for a friend to smile there,

and you might even expect a wave of contentment to come
when pretend purchases reality – for a time –
in exchange for a dream.

a sweet, sweet, dream.

 

But sometimes the imagination is not enough.

 

Sometimes you just want one REAL moment

again

a joke.
a smoke.
one cup-o-joe or a two-finger pour.
a band playing songs you’ve never heard
but you don’t care
‘cause it’s buying you one more minute of REAL
before the car starts and the day ends.

 

Sometimes the imagination is not enough…

…and you’re sick of building snowmen in summer.

Day76_Snowman in Summer


Day 75: Space To Be

Day 75: Space To Be


 

Please                                          don’t

say

that                               in                a

world

so

wide,

with

roads                       so

long

and

horizons

so

vast,

there                                             is

no

space

for

you

     to be you.

and

for               me

to be me.

Day75_Wide

…clouds need not be the same shape to move in resplendent unison.


Day 74: Story Number One

Day 74: Story Number One


Once upon a time there lived a man,
who loved a love he never knew.

To her he’d write long letters,
and sing his made up songs,
and to her he’d rant endlessly
about his goings on.

He never saw her face
or how she moved around;
he never knew her height
or her voice’s lilting sound.

But still, he kept on calling
to air, to wind, to see,
and wondered on her whereabouts
and, “is she calling me?”

Until one day, the tide came in
and with it, paper laden,
were volumes of pages, wet and faded,
from the unknown, unseen maiden.

“I see you,” said these salt stained lines,
“through air, through wind, I see,
I hear you, too, through all this time,
I hear you, calling me.”

And he waited there, on ocean’s edge,
straining for the source;
the origin of all these words
that through his veins did course.

And sunset after sunset,
after rising tides and falls,
he waited there, till he grew old,
on sand and kelp and sea gulls’ calls

and as he closed his eyes he asked,
“why did you never come?”
Said she, from voices on the wind,
“o, never did I leave…

… for I’m the voice inside you, man.

The one that never goes,

that loves you unconditionally,

and all your secrets knows;

and hear I am, yes here I am,

and on and on and going…

..as endless as the white capped waves,
tidal, and ever-flowing.”

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